Six times in my New Living Translation Bible Job asks, Why?
Why was I not stillborn…
Why did the knees receive me,
and Why were there breasts for me to nurse…
Why was I not hidden like a miscarried child…
Why is light given to one burdened with grief…
Why is life given to a man whose path is hidden…
These were the why’s Job asked, questioning his very existence. His very life.
Who can blame him? He’d lost just about everything but the beat of his heart and the breath in His lungs simply because God chose to preserve his life.
And, my friend, no matter what you’ve lost, no matter what you’re going through, if you’re drawing breath then you can believe God still has a purpose for you on this earth. You may not know what it is right now, but God never abandons the work of His hands. He will not leave you in your hard forever.
I’ve heard Christians say we shouldn’t ask God why. It’s a lack of trust in His Sovereignty.
Just to let you know, I’m not sure I agree.
Maybe it is a lack of trust, or unbelief, but I’m a very human, very frail, very imperfect person.
Not to mention I’m very emotional, too. I’d like to call it passion, but…(that’s a why for another day.)
Still, I’m not afraid to ask God the why’s. I may not always get an answer, but sometimes life is just hard. Or plain not fair. It’s in seasons of hard things we can’t help but wonder what in the world God is doing. What His plan is. What His purpose is in it all.
If I’m to be completely honest, I don’t just have why’s. There are when’s. And where’s. And what’s. And how’s. I’m the queen of questions. A terrible what-iffer, too.
If I–who has never experienced the grief and trauma of Job–can ask why, then I’m going to cut Job some slack.
As far as I’m concerned, he could ask all the why’s he wanted.
I know God reserves the right to answer to my questions. I don’t believe He minds me asking. And I believe I can ask as many times as I want, but I’ve learned to be satisfied when He chooses not to reveal it all. Sometimes the greater purpose is just to build my faith in Him to see me through. Carry me through. Give me all I need to sustain me.
God has given us so much in Scripture to help us understand who He is and to help us through our times of trials and suffering, but seeking is all part of His plan.
“Seek the Lord while He may be found, call on Him while He is near…
‘For My thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways My ways’, declares the Lord.
‘As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are My ways higher than your ways and My thoughts than your thoughts.'” Isaiah 55:6,8-9
Even knowing God is Sovereign and above all things, He still knows I’m human.
Sometimes I think it actually grows my faith to ask.
Because I’m still talking to God. Instead of running from Him, I’m running to Him.
Somehow, in all the questions, in all the why’s, in all the seeking, I find Him.
The One who has all the answers I need.
The One who doesn’t just hear me. He listens. Because He cares.
I don’t know how it happens, but in the midst of all my why’s He Himself becomes the only answer I need.
Because life and hard things just make no sense without Him.
There will be no peace in the storm.
No purpose for the pain.
No plan on the wilderness road.
No Presence through fire.
So if it’s okay with you, I’ll keep asking the why’s.
Because I’m a seeker and sometimes that’s what God-seekers do.
God has never let me down. I’ve never failed to find Him when I seek Him with all my heart.
And sometimes for me, it all starts with why.
“Humble yourselves, therefore, under the mighty hand of God so that at the proper time He may exalt you, casting all your anxieties on His, because He cares for you,” 1 Peter 5:6-7
“Draw near to God and He will draw near to you…” James 4:8